Shatter The Mirror

Suicide is a selfish act. It’s not done to save another’s life, nor is it done to stand up for a belief. It’s done out of simple selfishness. I know, I once tried to take my own life.

The person who takes their own life is so consumed with themselves, they are like a person standing in front of a mirror consumed only by their own image and everyone else around them is a blur in the background of the mirror. They are swept up in their own sorrow or grief that they can’t step away, they are locked in just like in a trance.

Woman in mirror

Unless the mirror is shattered they will forever be consumed with their own woes and convince themselves that life isn’t worth living because that’s all that they see. Call it what you want from a brain imbalance or a life crisis, the end results are the same. People take their own lives because they are consumed with themselves and the woes that surround them.


How can I say this? I was so beaten down verbally and physically by my parents from as early as four years of age that I felt trapped in a loveless home. I was so focused on what “I” wanted and what “I needed” that I stood constantly in front of my own image convinced of the words that my parents told me were true.  You’re stupid, a cry-baby, an idiot, worthless, unwanted and dumb and so on. My mind was conditioned at a very young age to believe that I was all those things and as I entered puberty, I was convinced they were my identity.


So how did this mirror get broken in my life because obviously, I’m still here to write about it? When I was about ten, I saw the movie, “Jason and the Argonauts” on T.V. in black and white mind you. It was the classic of the Greek myths brought to the screen to entertain the PG audiences in the 70’s.  It didn’t hit me until I was 15 and a friend stopped me from taking some pills to end my life, that I heard the singing sirens in that movie, where they sing Jason’s men to sleep to draw the ship into the rocks to destroy it and then pillage the remains, did I fully get what was happening to me.


It shook me so much that I “woke up” from my trance of despair. I saw hope in the horizon, but even that was fading until I was told about the love of God. Only then did I see that my life had a purpose for something bigger, something grander than just me.

The enemy to all mankind is the devil and his minions. They go about to whoever will listen to their lies until their victim is so consumed by their own sad state that they end their lives at his hand. He strategically stalks his victims and sings in such a subtle way, that his victims have no idea that they are being lured into a trance, staring at themselves in the mirror of despair until they crash. Their souls are either carried to heaven or pillaged into hell to wait out the judgment set before them.

I’m convinced that there is an unseen spiritual presence that is from hell itself, invading the thoughts of men, women, and children all over the world into a trance so deep that those minds can be hypnotized into sadness, despair, anxiety, and anger just to name a few. Young children who are even loved and cherished by their parents can fall prey to this oppression through electronic media only to be diagnosed with some sort of chemical imbalance and over-prescribed anti-depressants because the spiritual world has not been proven, or acknowledged to date by modern man.

Our daughters held captive

The Bible is clear about the fallen angels and their leader.  It says starting in verse 6 of 1 Peter, “Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him because he cares for you. Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world.” 1 Peter 5:6-9 ESV

Sad lion

So, you who are believers in God’s word take note. Satan wants to take us down. He can’t have our souls because they belong to Christ, but he will do all that he can to make us useless for the Kingdom while we are here on earth.  We can’t let this happen!

You who do not have a relationship with Christ, note this.  Jesus is speaking here, He says;

“Let not your hearts be troubled.”

“Believe in God;[a] believe also in me.”

2” In my Father’s house are many rooms. If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you?[b] And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you to myself, that where I am you may be also.”

4 “And you know the way to where I am going.”[c] Thomas said to him, “Lord, we do not know where you are going. How can we know the way?”

Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”

7 “If you had known me, you would have known my Father also.[d] From now on you do know him and have seen him.”

Philip said to him, “Lord, show us the Father, and it is enough for us.” Jesus said to him, “Have I been with you so long, and you still do not know me, Philip?

Whoever has seen me has seen the Father. John 14: 1-9 ESV

Learn of God, believe in what Jesus did, teach it to our children, share His love and live this truth and our enemy becomes a toothless lion. He will no longer have power over us. Besides that, we serve the bigger Lion, who wins!



About Annie Stevens

I've been through hell and back and I'm here to proclaim that "You can get through it!" Just keep going. If you're not dead, you're not done! My blog is from a Gardener's perspective. I want the reader to see that there is purpose in nature and that purpose is to help you navigate through life to find your own purpose. I've done a lot of different things over the last 50 some odd years and I hope by my story, you can find hope where there seems like there is no hope.
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